Day 19

Day 18 Review: I went to bed around 12:30 because I wanted to stay up for the Oscars. There were only a few hives on my cheeks and upper thighs...I wish it was like that most days, well not the cheek part, just the "a few" part....

What is wrong with me?? Why do I seem to ignore the people I like the most? I screwed up big time today. All I had to do is say a simple "HI!". Why is that so hard for me? Hope I didn't push away a probable great friend. If only I could say what I want to truly say, speak the way I want to truly speak, be who I truly am. Now I'm even more conflicted and torn apart inside. Luckily my exterior doesn't mirror the interior. I'm tattered, tired, and ragged on the inside, but on the outside I try hard to be as upbeat and composed as I can successfully muster. I use cheerful facial expressions and common phrases to mask the lackluster me I am. Bright side? I'm starting to understand some part of Physics...

The hives were abnormally early today. They appeared around 1pm - 2pm, starting on my hands. They're now slowly crawling up my arms. I can't even bother take off my jeans, I know they're under there too...

Miscellaneous Stuff Time:

I got an unusual amount of compliments today. Compliments always make me feel uncomfortable. I feel like every compliment is sarcastic. They're really just trying to tell me there's lettuce in my teeth...

Had a weird dream about my English teacher...:S.

I started thinking about the possibilities of next year. Lots of responsibility.

Started my campaign for S.O. President next year. I'm being forced to run, but I think I'll like the job. It'll keep me occupied and distance me from all the other chaos.